I wait...

I wait... wait for the next...
Knowing fully well, I am here and now
I wait... Wait for the next...

What is this next? I ask...
I shudder from within...
Not knowing what...
Still...
I wait... wait for the next...

I pull myself together... and just sit..
Just be in the here and now...
But still... 
I wait... Wait for the next...

This wait has been on for long I know...
Beyond this Life...
How long will this wait go on...?
Not knowing still...
I wait ... Wait for the Next...

Have I lost myself in this Wait?
I know not..
Will I find myself in the beyond...?
I know not...
Still...
I wait... Wait for the next...

This wait defines me now.. 
I love that Angst...
I wait in the here and now...
Not knowing for what... For whom...
Still ...
I wait... Wait for the Next...

Hmm... hmm.. Don't Run Away!!!

Let Go... They Say !
Ignore ... They say!
Just forget and move on ... They say

Hmm hmm hmm...

I tell myself..
Let go, Ignore, forget!!
But...
It lingers...


Hmm Hmm Hmm..
What is it  that lingers???
A void... a vacuum... an emptiness...a nothingness!
That leaves me Bland!


Hmm Hmm Hmm...
Don't run away..
Be with It.. that void..
This nothingness has not come to stay!
Its just Life's little Play,
Its just a Visitor, a guest, for a day;
Or may be two...
You are the Host... So just BE..
Don't Run Away!!!

Freedom of Bondage!!!

Krishna my love, eternally etched in my heart...
In our bond, I find freedom...

Kahna, my mate, forever haunting my thoughts...
In our dreams, I taste Reality!

Kanaiyya, my shadow, One beyond Reason..
In our dance, I experience Truth

I am your Radhe!... eternally etched in your heart!
I am your Radhe! yearning for her mate,
I am your Radhe! your faithful shadow.

Let our eyes meet... our souls speak..
To drench in the Freedom of Bondage!

Free me from the fetters of  so-called Reality
To drench in the Freedom of Bondage

Free me from the clutches of name, fame and tainted dreams..
To drench in the freedom of bondage

Save me from fake smiles, small talk, drama of life...
To drench in the freedom of bondage!

Be born again in my heart, in my thoughts, in my dreams...
So that I can drench in the Freedom of Bondage!!!

Ultimate Medication!!!

JUST BE... Without Confrontation
JUST SEE ... Without Interpretation
JUST LOVE... Without Justification
JUST LAUGH...Without Saturation
JUST CRY... Without Clarification

JUST RELAX... With Reflection
JUST SLEEP.. With Satisfaction
JUST EAT... With Satiation
JUST DANCE... With Elation

JUST BE.. . Its Meditation..
Its my Soul's Ultimate Medication!!!

Pause awhile and look within!

When thoughts throng your brain and leave you breathless...
When your heart and pulse rate ascends aimless...
When you hear your heart throbs in your brain..
When you feel your emotions erupt and drain..
When you gulp and feel the pain in your throat...
When your eyes look listless and your feelings bloat..
When you feel left out, behind the crowd...
When your eyes water non stop without doubt...

Pause awhile... and look within... and look beyond till you hear no more...

Pause awhile.. and look within... and look inwards till you feel no more...

Wash out your thoughts... empty your mind...

Befriend yourself... And know that you are never Alone!

Is it wrong to Dream?

"Is it wrong to dream?
Is it wrong to be free?Is it wrong to dream of freedom ?
I ask Thee!!!

I love to dream of freedom...
Freedom to be free from bonds of so-called Love!
Freedom to be free from all false hopes and promises,
Freedom to be ME,
Freedom to be in Glee,
Freedom to soar up high and fly
Freedom to let go and cry!!!


Is it wrong to dream?
Is it wrong to be free?
Is it wrong to dream of freedom?
I gently as Thee!!!

40...Is not just a number!!!

It is 24^th June once again and I complete 40 years…. There are umpteen things I am grateful for!!!, for what life has offered me. Jotting down 40 thoughts that just came spontaneously, for which am ever grateful!!!

• 1.       My loving parents- who make me feel secure
• 2.       My life partner- who makes me feel special
• 3.       My first born- who makes me feel blessed
• 4.       My younger son- who makes me feel loved
• 5.       My brother- who makes me feel proud
• 6.       My best friend- who makes me feel myself
• 7.       Friends in my growing up years- who were reflection of my own self
• 8.       Friends from around the world- who added more colour and meaning to my life
• 9.       My cousins and relatives – who teach be the value of family bonding
• 10.   My girls at Udavum karangal- who teach me the power of touch and the necessity to express
• 11.   Books- they speak my own thoughts and teach me life lessons
• 12.   Music-  takes me places
• 13.   Travel-gives me taste of freedom
• 14.   Forgiveness-  helps me let go and embrace freedom
• 15.   Driving- which instills in me a sense of direction
• 16.   Dance- takes me one step closer to myself
• 17.   Yoga- an answer to many questions
• 18.   Moments of silence, reflection, introspection
• 19.   Elation I experience from creative ideas and choreographies
• 20.   Hot food on my table after an exhaustive day
• 21.   Foot massage after a day of hard work
• 22.   A pat, a hug and a cuddle from a loved one
• 23.   My teachers from my kindergarten to today who are forever giving
• 24.   People who help me clean my home, my car and workplace- they make me a better person
• 25.   All my students who look up to me- they add purpose to my life
• 26.   My phone – which is an extension of my hand today
• 27.   Poetry- which are spontaneous expressions of my soul
• 28.   My institution- which is my charging station
• 29.   Dairy milk fruit and nut- after lunch… yum!!!
• 30.   Early mornings before anyone is up—it’s my me time
• 31.   AC in hot Chennai summers
• 32.   Unrestricted laughter and freedom I relish with a few
• 33.   Acts of kindness
• 34.   Smiles from strangers
• 35.   Sudden drizzles and walk in the rain
• 36.   My dancing bells
• 37.   My fingers on the strings of the veena
• 38.   Sunrise and chirping of birds
• 39.   Starry nights
• 40.   My spirit of youth